you said you wanna see the northern lights

I said oh baby I’ll take you there if I can

Oh, saving change up for the man

And now the stars are grinding up my shoes

I’m walking paralysed in dreams that could come true

Oh, I’m changing route

I said I wanna be

Your rockstar dream girl baby

I said I wanna be

The girl on the silver screen 

Hollywood’s calling me

A melting pot of esteem

I’m fermenting inside

show me a new side to life

Hollywood’s a knife

And now the stars are grinding at my heels

So preheat that oven to 2000 degrees

I always dreamed of the boulevard

A godless worship of tobacco and guitars

‘Cause I want my life to be

a scrapbook of backstage passes,

drinking from long stemmed glasses champagne as a catalyst

You try and stop me

and you watch just what happens

Ohhh ohhhhh

I said I wanna be

Your rockstar dream girl baby

I said I wanna be

The girl on the silver screen

 Hollywood’s calling me

A melting pot of esteem

I’m fermenting inside

show me a new side to life

Hollywood’s a knife

Wanna be

Baby

Wanna be

Screen

Calling me

Esteem

Calling me

Up at

I said I wanna be

Your rockstar dream girl baby

I said I wanna be

The girl on the silver screen

 Hollywood’s calling me

A melting pot of esteem

Hollywood’s calling me

Can you pick me up at

Five

I do find love in every little thing

Maybe it’s my naivety speaking

Why do I feel it all at once

I’ve not been casual

a day in my life

This storm’s unforecasted

I hate weather warning signs

‘Cause I do

Feel love inside

Why do I feel it all at once

Why is the world so sharp to

my senses?

Where did it go wrong?

‘Cause I like the slow circles your thumb makes on my shoulder

Time still passes under these sheets and we grow older

Can we hide from the world until we feel like it’s over?

Why do I feel it all at once

Why is the world so sharp to

my senses?

Where did it go wrong?

I wrap my hands around my own throat

when I think about you

Thoughts unsettling like smoke

in the distant blue

Lets go to furniture store

price up linoleum floor

Plan our future some more

I tighten my grasp around my neck,

til my face turns to blue

Though I’m swallowed by night,

you still light up my room

‘cause I used to hide from the sunshine

But you’re my daylight savings time

Yeah, you kept me in the bright

ooh

I’m no good at second chances,

I think I gave them out all at once

did I turn our future to dust?

‘cause that sofa from DFS

Looks like it’s past it’s best

How did the future come to rest?

Sometimes I reminisce

drinking through the night

bottle sealed with a kiss

I wish those lips were mine

I’d steal every drop

I’m so selfish all the time

Sometimes your kiss

plays forever on my mind

I’m sugar spread on your lips, a minute on the dial

I dream to last a lifetime on your hips, taste me one last time

Try to understand the road ahead

Can’t make waves on dry land

I know I’m scared

To release and accept

Ooh, woah

I’m so

Focused on footfall forgot feet fell forwards

So

Starting fires for warmth ignoring the sun

I’ll miss sunset if I don’t change

what I’ve become

I know I’m safe

But I’m scared

I don’t like change

Ooh, woah

I’m so

Focused on footfall forgot feet fell forwards

So

Focused on footfall forgot feet fell forwards

Okay I’ll admit I’m the type of girl to do

Everything that you told her not to

As soon as I’m no longer underneath you

Because I never should have been

I will never be that small again

‘Cause my voice was just a whisper then

To be quiet was never my intent

‘Cause I never should have been

Your mouth sprayed me specs of blue

I won’t be painted like you

I’ll shed all of my skin right to the bone

To invest in myself to heal and grow

To be someone you’ve never touched before

And someone you’ll never reach

I’ll eat my own lips and peel and pick

And paint myself crimson lick by lick

to be someone you’ve never kissed before

And be someone you’ll never know

Your mouth sprayed me specs of blue

I won’t be painted like you

Your mouth sprayed me specs of blue

I won’t be painted like you

I saw you watching the show, your attention never strays

and showbiz says everyone disappears when you’re on stage

But all I saw was your gaze

and my mind sees newspaper bouquets

Fold by fold,

Fold by fold,

I stayed up all night,

couldn’t get the folds right,

origami flowers

Gentle scratches

and ink patches,

origami flowers

Origami

You said: ”last night, I thought we were going to kiss”

So why the fuck didn’t you say you felt like this

I want your pretty name stained inside my lips

I want your pretty smile pressed against my hips

Fold by fold,

Fold by fold,

I stayed up all night,

couldn’t get the folds right,

origami flowers

Gentle scratches

and ink patches,

origami flowers

Origami

I kept a set list from April,

Drew out your tattoos by memory,

but then the ink spilled,

turning white into ebony

I stayed up all night,

couldn’t get the folds right,

origami flowers

Gentle scratches

and ink patches,

origami flowers

In the garden

petals harden,

origami flowers

colours fade

into pale shades

origami flowers

Origami

Origami

No more hiding behind restoration glass,

Been looking through these blackout panes where time would never pass.

The windows are all broken, and thoughts that were out of reach

Run to me, and growth exudes my bones.

I begun to look at the skies, charmed by the gleams

But stardust fell in my eyes, now I’m blinded with these dreams.

Change sprung up all around me,

Never needed someone to ground me

just hope the pressure wont drown me.

Never been scared of expectations,

Working on the art of embracement,

Still undergrown

Been craving simplicity due to my stupidity,

Not realising what I would lose.

A lack of experience and an excess of worry,

Could my brain be wrong?

I begun to look at the skies, charmed by the gleams

But stardust fell in my eyes, now I’m blinded with these dreams.

Change sprung up all around me,

Never needed someone to ground me

just hope the pressure wont drown me.

Never been scared of expectations,

Working on the art of embracement,

Still undergrown

I have lost my hiding place

And I’m basking in the sun now,

Soaking in the brightest rays

And they urge for me to grow now.

I have lost my hiding place 

And I’m basking in the sun now,

Soaking in the brightest rays

And they urge for me to grow now.

Change sprung up all around me,

Never needed someone to ground me

just hope the pressure wont drown me.

Never been so scared of expectations,

Working on the art of embracement,

Still undergrown

you’re driving so damn fast

And you’re not sure where to

The roof’s down you’re staring at the sky

Watching the clouds move

If I could reach the clouds I would

Ride them homebound

I’d climb the trees but I’m out of practice

Plummet to the ground

But I won’t talk to you

As much as I want to

Cause I’d only get breathless

And give in too soon

But I prefer my skin when it smells of you

And its so frustrating that I can’t remove

You from my frontal lobe

but latching on is like self induced vertigo

Sometimes I’m too much of a dreamer

For my own good

every time the haze clears yeah

You cloud my world

But I won’t talk to you

As much as I want to

I’d only get breathless

And give in too soon

But I prefer my skin when it smells of you

And its so frustrating that I can’t remove

You from my frontal lobe

how can I

be touch starved

and touch repulsed

all at once

And why am I admitting that

in a song

But I prefer my skin when it smells of you

And its so frustrating that I can’t remove

You from my frontal lobe

but latching on is like self induced vertigo

Slip away for a little while, ah

New found anxiety in only what I can see

Being alone is a dangerous act, yeah

The only way I can deal is finding new ways to feel

Wonder why I’m never at home

Tryna stay in a good zone

Distractions are all that I know

So I gotta keep on the go

Am I running out of steam or am I running out of time

My balance is off and I’m falling off the side

I’m still on course but I’m starting to derail

I keep on pushing ‘cause I’m not about to fail

oooh

Whisps of Smoke blow into my eyes, ah

Scent of Vanilla under darkened skies

Such a resent in the dead of night, ah

And in the cold, all our tears crystallise

Wonder why I’m never at home

Tryna stay in a good zone

Distractions are all that I know

So I gotta keep on the go

Am I running out of steam or am I running out of time

My balance is off and I’m falling off the side

I’m still on course but I’m starting to derail

I keep on pushing ‘cause I’m not about to fail

oooh

Soaking in your history

i climbed that hill every Sunday

cutting my knee on the thorns

dripping like crushed raspberry

picked just before this fall

soak the wound in salt

wound in salt

Bathed In salt

Bathed in salt

Soaking in your history

Revel in the infancy

we climb that hill again today

but the brambles have withdrawn

the skies call in the cavalry

swollen clouds begin assault

we surrender it all

succumb to all

succumb to all

succumb to all

Soaking in your history

Revel in the infancy

Soaking in your history

Revel in the infancy

I’ve grown so much this year

My hairs grown 6 inches

I’m no longer scared to be in bed

with someone else in it

Learnt to accept myself

But struggle to see

how I will ever be

enough for someone else

‘Cause even if I’m just a bore

will you stay with me for a while?

I’m not the type you’ll stay for

But I’ll go blind like the last time

Because I’ve never seen real love

staring back into my eyes

preferred feeling broken

To being driven crazy

Craving love

That was never made for me

‘Cause even if I’m just a bore

will you stay with me for a while?

I’m not the type you’ll stay for

But I’ll go blind like the last time

Because I’ve never seen real love

staring back into my eyes

I miss driving late at night and sleeping on the passenger side, what’s missing in me

'cause the love fades into a lie like the fading candlelight, but ill pretend its here

Even if I’m just a bore

But will you stay with me for a while?

Lend your love a little more

I’ll go blind like the last time

Even if I’m just a bore

will you stay with me for a while?

I’m not the type that you’ll stay for

But I’ll go blind like the last time

Because I’ve never seen real love

staring back into my eyes

Sleepy eyed sunrise

tangle my eyes, tantalise

Until I start to rise

How could I never see

My actions make reality

Wild woman sing to me

When the earth comes to pruning

the thorns of your spine that’s separating

Id grasp at spikes til I’m oozing

To steal a rib for propagating

All my life

I’ve been searching

I’ve been searching

Now I realise

It’s within me

It’s within me

Now I finally see

My actions make reality

La loba sing to me

And I’m collecting my old bones

Strengthening my heart and soul

Feel the magic in our own

All my life

I’ve been searching

I’ve been searching

Now I realise

It’s within me

It’s within me

Fuchsia eyes, cigarette smoke

Inhale burning love through my nose

Help me overdose

Passioned skies, red like rose

Exhale in altercation, breathing slows

clouds coming to blows

Let the cold truth

sit in the room

On the armchair for two

Vacant and blue

It won’t bite when it’s milk-warm

glass on the countertop

I Feel my stomach drop

The girl found love, her mothers heart breaks

She finally found someone that gives her the shakes

Oh how my stomach aches

battery acid nose, can’t feel her own face

Caffiene overdose, the rush keeps her awake

Is this all that it takes?

Let the cold truth

sit in the room

On the armchair for two

Vacant and blue

It won’t bite when it’s milk-warm

Like a glass on the countertop

I feel my stomach drop

Cold rain coming in

Pool upon your skin

Let it mature

room temperature

It won’t bite so much

when it’s milk-warm

I don’t like to think anymore about you

And you like to drink so much more than I do

Cause it just gets me stressed and I don’t need an excuse

To stress more than I do

But it feels all the same

Could we be stuck in our ways?

I run away

But I feel we’re in a rat race

Cause I keep pushing forwards and you keep pushing backwards

I don’t like to drink anymore ‘cause I find

That I think ‘bout you so much more when I’m high

And I feel so much stress when you’re running running running through my mind

But it’s not the same

Could we be stuck in our ways?

I run away

But I feel we’re in a rat race

Cause I keep pushing forwards and you keep pushing backwards

‘Cause I’ve been catching butterflies

And they sit in my stomach

All they wanna do is fly away

And they make my tummy ache

But I can’t let them go

If I do I know I’ll never feel the same

it’s not the same

Could we be stuck in our ways

I run away

But it feels we’re in a rat race

Cause I keep pushing forwards and you keep pushing me backwards

We’re on the Mezzanine

Floor, Stained black teeth

Red Wine stained sheets

You smile softly

It feels like warm soft summer rain

softly dampening the left side brain

We’re staggering our words

Swirling them around our tongues

Drowning them in Sauvignon

Our teeth grinding them up

It feels like warm soft summer rain

softly dampening the left brain

puffing on a pipe dream

Breathing the smoke of the soul

Forming plaque, feeling unclean

Need to break through the mold

hairs a mess from sleep

sparkles scatter across your cheeks

Blue eyes, black smudged underneath

It feels like warm soft summer rain

softly dampening the left brain

Do you believe in god?

‘Cause if you want

to call it the blood of Christ so you have less to repent on

Then we can lie to ourselves

‘Cause I’m hungry, I’m starving

Take me back to your apartment

I don’t want to eat alone

You can feast on my backbone

Does it hurt you?

We’re not holy enough

Won’t esteem you

Don’t have the Midas touch

I can’t heal you or

Act as above would want

Wine is still a drug

You can call it what you want

I must be a masochist

‘Cause you’re the last thing I need

(So I should really leave)

Cause I’d be lying to myself

Does it hurt you?

We’re not holy enough

Won’t esteem you

Don’t have the Midas touch

I can’t heal you or act as above would want

When I’m below your waist

Heavenly drunken love

So trace the bridge of nose,

Your touch is

Sweet like icing

frosting my forehead

I crave old comforts

could I find them in you?

I miss feeling soothed

Now I’m crying getting undressed

How is it so fucking complex?

I miss sheets shrouding my waist

Waking up by your face

your unfocused waking eyes

Looking just as surprised

As when we first kissed

Cracked surface, cracked lips

But I won’t say I miss

You

Cause I don’t like to

lie

I don’t sleep too well

But you’re sedater to my lungs

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t need you

But I need to feel enough

I miss sheets shrouding my waist

Waking up by your face

your unfocused waking eyes

Looking just as surprised

As when we first kissed

Cracked surface, cracked lips

But I won’t say I miss

You

Cause I don’t like to

lie